New year...New challenge

Alright my first post for this year and update from like forever, not even sure where to start from. I could make a really long post of everything that happened to me but I don't feel like doing that and I don't think too many people care about my person life so I will just make an outline. Last year I made roughly $20,000 give or take a little unfortunately had no rake back so missed out on like extra 10-15k but that's ok. I took a bit of a break at the end of the year and barely played any poker and instead bought an xbox and played that for little bit, at first it was definitely fun but after a while I was like meh, my true passion is poker and I needed to start back up. Now I had to start from scratch and build my roll again, and this is where my impatience messed me up. So I put in 50$, lost that fairly quick, perhaps I was too excited to play and at the time I was having a rough time in my personal life so that's probably the reason. Then I decided to start over again with a $50, hit a rough patch and went busto again so I'm thinking what am I doing and wrong. Then I borrowed $100 from a friend quickly built it to an over 1k in like a week, paid him back and yet again went busto because of letting emotions get in my way. Started over from like 30ish got it back up to 350$ish and the other day I completely tilted, I was getting very unlucky but I certainly can blame myself for losing control of myself. I have had times where I would get a little mad but I never got to the point I did the other day, so I took a day off and I'm back to the grind.

Have I improved? Certainly, I hand read better, I improved my strategies, I have a better style, went deep in few really big tourneys already but got a tad bit unlucky at the end, lost few coin flips and a made a mistake or lost with a monster, which happens of course and only thing I can do is just get it in with the best of it and hope it holds up. So I do feel like my game has improved a lot and I know it certainly wasn't because I was getting owned by someone that prevented me from winning, in fact out of all people I have played, I feel like the play was harder on full tilt. So I did learn my lesson, it wasn't the players that stopped me from winning, it was me and I finally faced the facts and am ready to grind once again. I'm not sure why I rushed with a few decent rolls, perhaps I wanted to be playing the higher stakes like I did last year, a lot of my poker buddies are playing at the higher levels and are tearing it up and I'm very happy for them and not jealous by any means, I just wanted to be up there tearing it up myself but I let my emotions prevent me from doing so. I'm a left brained person and I feel like being able to analyze situations very well and not letting my emotions get in the is what makes me such a strong poker player and I need to use that to my advantage. I have analyzed my situation, learned my lesson and I am ready to grind, so therefore I decided to make myself a challenge, and make my BRM a lil bit, I would say strict but a lil more careful, I never been a brm nit and never will be, I just don't have the patience for that and I feel like that will just make me play worse, but instead I will set myself rules that are reasonable and I feel comfortable with.

so what's my challenge? Well my over all goal is to take the T$11 ( tournament dollars) and turn it into 30,000 by the end of the year, it will certainly be kind of hard at first but definitely not impossible, since last year I made 20k in about 6 month and I know now that I'm better than before it will be easier. I'm not going to make the whole guideline like I did last time but instead I will take it one step at a time. So my first step is to turn the 11$ to 50$ just playing at the 1$ level. I will also play the 1.75 18 man omaha h/l sit n gos since I find those very easy to beat and very profitable so I will probably start out taking 3 or so shots at that and hopefully win. Then at 50, I will update and decide what I want to play from there, so right now pretty much 1$ sit n gos and 1$ mtts and maybe short stack 5nl if nothing else goes well.
So overall, I'm feeling great right now, of course I'm dissapointed I blew my roll but I definitely made quite a bit before and I know I can do it again. My mind is clear and strong so no tilting from me again and I'm ready to grind. My personal life is going great again, my gf and I are on same page and doing great so yea time to go grind!!! Oh yea, I will try to not be lazy and update this on regular basis for those of you who actually care and read :)